Like adrenaline pump life. Make us woke.
In just enough time to do foolish things.
Because one-night stands are stories we swear to never repeat
Until our bodies catch feelings and we attempt to burn evidence of it
In several wild sexcapades.
There is something about a person needing several shots of it.
Before sanity scrapes the folly off their eyes.
You’re alone in this bubble and it’s going to burst. Run.
But you can’t.
The last of it hits you.
As if you’re anesthetized and time contains you.
In a room that feels that like it’s just been torched.
Your stomach turns. And crumples. And kneads
Like the diarrhea it announces when you’re anxious or too nervous.
Only this time there’s less physical awkwardness
And the pain coming is from a place beyond the soul.
On its own it triggers bearable harm.
What makes it insufferable is the thought that we ourselves, might have been guilty of giving it all the venom it needed to destroy us.
Like when I thought I could love you enough for the two of us.
To balance out this rollercoaster relationship.
This, fucking love.